I did a terrible job this week. I’m looking at my calendar for the last week and I didn’t work on Snip at all.
The main reason I didn’t work on Snip at all is because I worked 40 billable hours. I also had a lot of meetings with freelancing prospects. I also worked on my Angular + Rails self-education that I’m hoping will help me get more and better freelancing clients and a higher pay rate.
I’m feeling pretty torn. On one hand, maybe the best thing for Snip is for me to focus 100% for a little while on earning money and building back my savings so money is not a day-to-day concern. But then on the other hand I feel like a wimp for not working on Snip at all, like I’m just one of those lazy assholes who “wants” to run a product business but never actually makes time.
I think focusing on getting BFL healthier is probably the best way to go, though. I technically don’t have any debt, but I do have some sizable outstanding medical bills and a LOT of overdue car repairs, and that stuff is effectively the same thing as debt. I had saved up ten thousand bucks before I went freelance but I ended up burning through it all and now I don’t have any savings. So I feel like I should make getting that stuff out of the way the first priority.
But then again there will always be a bazillion reasons not to work on Snip.
I just don’t fucking know. And the last thing I want is to be all wishy-washy and not be able to make a decision. I don’t want to just run back and forth between BFL and Snip and never really make any meaningful progress on either.
I’ve been thinking more and more that maybe I’m just a “tech guy” and don’t have what it takes to get my own product business off the ground. Three and a half years in and I’m not even close. I know this is a poisonous attitude, and I’ve tried for a long time to squash it, but I’m really starting to doubt myself.
I had been all excited about my new opt-in form but it seems now that people aren’t filling it out anymore. I haven’t gotten a new opt-in in many days.
I’m not considering pulling the plug, though. I guess I’ll just keep trying, knowing that I was evidently born with some good-idea blocker or right-attitude blocker that makes everything take a thousand times longer than it should.